One of the biggest struggles in my life has been trying to find my voice. As a child I was cripplingly shy, it was difficult for me to even buy something at a store or make a phone call. Initiating contact with another person was the most terrifying thing in the world. And yet, I'm remembered as a good listener. I would sit patiently for hours as a family member or friend talked. I wanted to connect but I didn't know how to do it for myself. Therapy was a place that I could go where I had to talk about myself. I was with someone who was entirely focused on me and seemed genuinely interested in my hopes, fears, and dreams. At first, and by at first I mean for the first 2 years, this was very unnerving to me. I didn't know what to do with a WHOLE HOUR to myself. I didn't think anyone cared that much. But I kept going, and I kept practicing how to speak my truth and, over many more years of treatment, and countless awkward silences I found my voice.
So here I am, launching a website and committing to a blog. I'm setting my intention right now to post once or twice a week here. Well what's it going to be about you might ask. Good question, I'm not really sure yet. There's a few things I want to incorporate, first, I want to share what's real and important for me. This may look like stories about my past or emotions I'm working with in the present. Also, I want to talk about what it's like for me to be a fresh therapist. This is kind of a weird job and I'd like to shed some light on to what it's like for me inside and outside of the room. My hope is do my part to help debunk the stigma of treatment. And finally, I want to present and review psychology research. There is so much brilliant work being done out there and my committing to reviewing it I not only get to share it with my audience but I'll motivate myself to dive back into that world.
Perhaps the most important part of this blog for me however is my interaction with the readers even if they are just my family members and friends. Actually, especially if they are my family members and friends. I want to hear from you! I want to hear if you relate, I want to hear what you think, I want to hear if you disagree. Please do no hesitate to comment on these posts. I will get back to you. In order to comment you have to click on the title up top, it'll take you the full post with the comment box on the bottom.
So here I go, into the wild world of thought uploading. I'm happy that you're joining me.